How is your summer going? I am having a bit of a mad one. Let’s just say my poppers stock is running down quickly. I am relatively newly single and for the last few months I have been having good times with my male sex toys collection and some manhood tools as well. All very satisfying but nothing like what I have been experiencing this summer. I decided to give my toys a rest and find some real flesh and connections. To be honest, I was nervous to venture out of the safety of my own home and leave my favourite sex toys behind, but it had to be done before I would turn into a complete recluse.

So out I go

I was not sure where to start my search for physical contact and after some thinking, I ended up going to a sauna. My confidence was a bit low so I brought some of the best poppers with me hoping it would help, but it turned out to be the wrong place to start my search. So many men were willing to jump into a room with me or just have sex on the spot. It was so overwhelming that I left after 30 minutes. It will be great when I am ready for that, but I needed a gentler way back into having fun with a man. It would be my first time since my ex and he and I were not very active the last few years, so I felt a bit rusty.

Then this happened

So, with deflated energy and feeling a bit like a failure I decided to go back home and jump on the bus, afraid that my Fleshjack was going to be the only way to get pleasure in the future. Slightly dramatic I know, but I am drama! Anyway, back to the bus. Looking out the window staring into nothing I see a reflection on the glass. Two dark brown eyes staring directly at me. To double check I am not imagining it I turn and look straight into them! I got instant fanny flutters, or whatever these words translate to in the gay world. I think he noticed my excitement and said “hi” and I made a noise resembling a greeting, I think. He introduced himself as Eduardo and I asked where my mind went to just a few moments ago. Rather than telling him the truth I said I was just “in my own world” to which he responded, “I hope it is a nice world”. I mean, smooth or what? Sometimes you just know someone is interested and this was one of those occasions and it went from smooth to super direct. My stop was coming up and I said that I had to get off the bus. He looked at me and asked if I wanted him to join him. Without thinking, I said, “yes”. I still don’t know where that courage came from.

GULP!

Back at my place, we did not waste any time, we started kissing the moment we got in. I felt something pressing to my leg and knew I needed some anal lube and my trusted bottle of Liquid Gold . When we got to my bedroom things went very fast and we did it all! I mean ALL, with passion and I felt we had a true connection. Afterwards, I was so satisfied and happy the sauna did not work out this time. We stayed in bed for a while and had some pillow talk. I remember thinking, this dude is great, maybe this can go somewhere. Then he mentioned he was married. Not quite sure what to do with that I acted like that was OK and this is how things can be these days. If I had been more honest, I would have probably said he should have mentioned that on the bus. I did take his number knowing it would be a one-off. Despite the being married thing, it was the perfect way to get back in the game and I have not looked back since. My sex toys have been untouched for months and I even managed to go back to the sauna. This time I was ready for it and my goodness saunas can be fun if you are after some action. With increased confidence, I am ready for the rest of the summer!

My lesson learned here is to feel the fear and do it anyway. It seemed to work for me.

With love,

A member of www.esmale.com and https://www.poppersupershop.com/